Embarrassed

Is that what you want? Embarrassing me in front of the entire class just because I had a lot of spelling errors in my homework. I was trying to stay awake while doing it at 3am. Does spelling matter? Does it tell the class any information or any points that we should take note of? I know I'm the worst in class for literature response. I know. I'm trying. Its so hard to even have the motivation to try anymore since you're just embarrassing me even more. Don't do that. Don't think that you know everything. Because you don't understand, and you never will.

Please don't make a big fuss because of that. Everyone is already guessing who wrote that stupid and illogical shit for lit response. All of you are laughing because of the spellings. I know. I'm not good at this. But please stop making me feel like a failure, or make me feel insecure. I'm already insecure enough. I'm already trying not to do anything stupid. But you're just making it worse. And, please don't laugh and make it seem like a big deal. Don't go "haahhaha so its you!" Now everyone knows I made those careless mistakes. Great. Now they're going to laugh even harder at me. Can't you see that I'm already uncomfortable and on the verge of breaking down? Stop teasing. Know when is the right time to and when is not. Be sensitive and put yourself into my shoes. Telling my ex good friend about my failure? Great. Thanks a lot. You might think I'm the strong one who takes jokes really well. But then sorry I'm not. You just make me want to hide in a hole right there and right then. Its not the first time you did it to me. Stop embarrassing me, or you'll regret it when I get my revenge.

Now my mom is scolding me. She's practically screaming in my face, threatening to hit me as she boomed. I hate it so much. I hate it when she can't understand me. All she thinks is that she's having a tiring day when all she did was housework at home. After a big blow in school, you still have to add on? Is my pain not enough? You sadistic woman. Everytime you force me to understand the meaning of filial. But when I told you that you should give me privacy and showed you a story about knocking on the door before entering, you screamed "I'm not your wife I'm your mother! I ought to have the rights to come into your room whenever I want." The point of the story is not knocking on the door before your wife says you can enter, but on this respect thing. Now you're blaming me by making up a lame excuse? Great. Now you're asking me to kneel all night and do housework for you? Great. I have my homework to do. You don't. Would you please understand me for a while? 

I just feel like dying right now. Death is a faster solution than waiting for all of you to torture me to death. I don't want to go to school, I don't want to come home. I just want to die. 

Are you all happy now?