Midnight , a hard decision

Annyeong Haseyo people ! :) I'm writing on the blog again , haha . The time here is around 2AM . I still can't sleep , pondering over a really hard decision . So tomorrow I have this 'carnival' thingy and I was kind of really needed to go since I'll be like the 'main character' of the 'story' . Yeah , but I really don't know what to do . Every single time I have a lot of questions flooding mind at this point of time when everyone is off at their own 'Lala land' . I really wanted to question them about this . If I don't get a satisfied answer , my heart will keep beating fast against my ribcage and I'll feel very panicky & my stomach would do a somersault . My eyelids are extremely heavy right now and all I want to do is just sleep on my cozy bed . I really can't stop thinking about my queries since I've been thinking about all the possibilities of every single possible way I could take tomorrow . None of them seems like a perfect idea . So I don't know what should I do . Haiz , this is life I suppose ? Expect it & Live it .