I'm not dead yet T_T

Mayans , why you give me false hope ? I was wishing I could die yesterday but ... A failure indeed . I don't know to loathe you for letting my meet these coming hardships or thank you for giving me the chance to live my life .

I hate you tbh .

Ok so you kind of made me super disappointed and I'm basically whining that I'll have to attend this competitive secondary school next year . I don't know if I can survive this with an extremely low IQ , a lazy self and friendless #foreveralone .

Aish . So hopeless right now seeing the amount of things I'll have to memorize and the difficult life .

Pshh , my life is totally f*cked up .