HAPPY NEW YEAR !

Happy new year everyone ! :) ITS officially 2013 ! I truly hope that it'll be a good year for everyone and we can start afresh .

Okay then tomorrow , school is going to start T.T But nevertheless , I really love k-poppers , anime lovers and otakus .

Also , I will love my parents and friends more from now on . I just simply can't use words to explain my undying love for you . Ok how about a kiss ? /sents kiss 💋/ /Le pukes/

Haha , just kidding I really appreciate everything I have . And yes I hope this year will also be an excellent year for me to strive in both academics and sports :D

New year , new people , new school , new teachers , new start , new competitors , new bitches to deal with >.> and also , new problems of course .

Happy birthday SJ's Sungmin , Happy GG comeback and Happy 2013 . Peace out okay :)

COUNTDOWN TO HELL : 1 DAY

HORROR IS NEARING

Okay so today nothing much to say just that uhm ... Woke up at 10AM to buy some stuffs with mom and then came back and totally hungry .

So I ate the noodles my mom prepared for me and okay , I'm kinda picky on food and it wasn't that appetizing so I only ate a little and that seaweed soup with Japan tofu has no taste but still taste good without salt /drools/ .

In the afternoon I did the usual things I do on holidays . My phone sticked to my hand (vice versa) the whole day and it refuses to part with my hand . Oh my god they're so loving they should get married soon (I'm weird) xD They would make a oh-so-perfect couple .

When my teacher saw me with my phone next time and asks , "Why are you holding on to your phone in my class !" I'll just sent her daggers using my eyes and just casually explains in a lazy tone "Oh because they are madly in love with each other and wouldn't it be cruel to part them ? You're such a heartless creature teacher !" Lol and then you could probably hear a loud "PIAK" . Two possibilities : 1-The teacher facepalmed herself . 2- The teacher can't control her anger anymore and slapped me (OTL)

Haha I was joking I'm really a good student (heh heh) and always hand in my work on time and listen attentively in class (not so much of this actually . I almost drift to lala land most of the time) .

Then in the late afternoon some people (I never new who they are) and they kind of replaced our old and torn sofa . The new one is black and you can say its quite comfortable but I personally prefer the old one (I'm picky) .

Then at night I didn't eat because I totally lost my energy to walk to the kitchen to heat up the noodles so I just starved myself . I also kind of lied to my parents that I ate dinner but somehow gave obvious hints that I didn't (I hate lying) .

They didn't took the hints though >.> My parents always trust me (?) okay not always sometimes my mom has doubts on me like example what am I doing on my phone all day long . When I was typing some tweets on Twitter she'll ask "Who are you talking to ?" Then I replied "Oh , nobody . I SWEAR !" She raised her eyebrow and look at me with suspicion and said "I don't believe you." Then I'll always go "Oh mom , you know I'm speaking the truth." And then sighed when she still didn't believe me .

ORZ just trust your child okay ? :)

Heres a picture of my drawing in the afternoon . I uploaded it on Instagram and Twitter since I was kind of bored and I didn't know what was that carrot hand/chicken leg (LOL isn't it claws but never mind this reply was cute :3)

COUNTDOWN TO HELL : 2 DAYS (Kill me now)

I don't wanna go to school

Didn't blog yesterday because I was on high and screaming 'EEYOREEE IS MY BEST FWEN!' I bet you're like .____. Right now okay never mind I'm born this way .

Today ... Is Saturday right ? Is it ? Never mind I'll check later you know . Next Wednesday school will be starting /flips everything and cries rivers/ . I loathe school maybe I'll have to wake up at 5AM or something to make it to the freaking far school in time /thunder + lightning/ .

The walk to the bus-stop is probably 10 minutes /slams table/ and the waiting should be 5 minutes and lastly the bus ride would last the whole - okay no vulgarities . The whole 45 minutes /sobs, get me some tissue/ . I'll take about an hour to make it to school /flips everything/ and don't forget about the morning preparation like wearing shoes , uniform , tying your hair , breakfast and they'll probably take about 30 minutes .

Oh how wonderful .

You think there will be nothing worse than that ? Oh you're wrong . The bus is already freaking cold for me early in the morning when I wear my old uniform and I almost became ice-cube but ... I managed to survive this tough battle somehow .

Now the uniform is creepily designed to be sleeveless and (??????) /sobs/ I'll die in this bus journey to hell . And the new levelmates (lol whats this) seems so bitchy on the registration day one of them didn't tie her hair and it was eerily long and frufffy (lol wad) and annoying I sat beside her and trust me , shes uglier than me >.> (what , don't look at my post like that . I'm born to be so self-praising) .

Ugh , just imagine having this kind of life /flips Earth/ makes me wanna free fall from my house already . Then theres this idiotic biology and history which I swear would make me go INSANE INSANE I-N-S-A-N-E . Mind my limited vocabulary e___e .

Ok thanks bye thats it already wahhhh I'll go jump off a bridge now .

Lol okay I'm bored so I'll share a picture of Seungri bee .

COUNTDOWN TO HELL : 3 DAYS

Nightmare starts tomorrow

Ok bewildered by my title ? Want me to explain why did I use that weird title ? /smirks/ Not now .

So I'll just briefly write (type) about my day . Woke up at 9AM due to mom's persistent nagging and pestering .

"Wake up! You need to buy your school shoes!" she barged into my room and shook me . I groaned and flip over to the other side of my bed , hoping she would leave me alone . However she continued causing a ruckus and I finally gave in to her nagging and woke up with my heavy eyelids since I only slept for about six hours . (I know for most of you who are reading my blog right now , this is enough for you , but never for me. Even if I had 12 hours of sleep , I would still feel sleepy and totally weak.)

I look horrible when I wake up , trust me . With those bird nest hair and pale face . You would have laughed like mad xD

I finally did my rise and shine (LOL) like a walking dead . Next , I went out with my cousin and mom to get my school shoes .

My family isn't rich and we don't buy branded things (We can't afford them) and thus I bought those non-branded white shoes at some random shoe shop which I usually patronize my school shoes .

After that , the three of us went for grocery shopping and believe it or not , I could not recall what we bought there (My poor memory) .

When we reached home , I threw all the things in my hands on the dining table and just sank into the sofa (I'm still sleepy and have no regain my full conscious -> I cannot differentiate conscious and conscience until now e___e)

One thing I hate is that visitors come to my house when I'm totally sleepy or whatever (?) . My cousin came to my house and she practically nagged at me for quite a long time , because I'm a spoilt brat . I just nodded my head and smiled (sarcastic way) . She is the seniority here . Haha I'm still thirteen (going fourteen soon ^_^) while shes already twenty plus ( I don't pay attention to my relatives' ages)

She helped me to iron my new secondary school uniform and I really don'y get why do we have to iron the uniform . I know its kind of crumpled but who cares . You can still look presentable right >_> Anyway screw the person who came up with this design . Really bad design . Sleeveless and white , seriously what were you thinking .

Then at night , we went to someone (idk who and I never remembered who)'s house party (I don't even know what is that for) and had buffet there (like twice already) . Maybe I was on high or just literally insane I just sarcastically gave everyone the oh-how-nice-to-meet-you smile which I personally think its creepy .

It gets me goosebumps too .__. I guess I'm just this type of gloomy and emotional person . I just ate a plate of noodles and instantly felt full . Most likely because of the fact that I drank too much green tea . Oh wait thats bloated right . Mind my limited vocabulary :)

When I reached home I thought I could finally relax and go on Twitter and tweet some random bullshit but without warning a swarm of people came flooding into my house . I still don't get the situation and one by one they squeezed into my bedroom (?) .

Its because my cousin (the one currently living with me) is going back to China tomorrow and I'm pretty sure I'll miss her since she has been accompanying me most of the time . But you know I'm kind of socially awkward so I didn't do much drama on her leave . And yeah , its a 8AM flight I suppose . Then her luggage is like totally ... I can't describe it ... Its fully packed with packets of coffee and milo I don't even get why do you have to sent these back its not like China didn't sell any coffee >__>

Ok then /yawns/ end of today . And I realized how much I hated the sunlight and the outside world . My life is simple , me , my friends , my family and my phone . And some people's life is full of drama and adventures I wanna experience them too but I'm just anti social so ... Yeah .

I just think that I could live without love its not like life would be like those drama /manga/story books/fanfiction , so romantic .

And thus , good bye .

Wait , PS: nightmare is that I'll have to cook for myself starting tomorrow . Cooking ? You'll either get the kitchen burning ( I SET FIREEE TO THE KITCHEN :D ) or me starving to death . I'm kind of immune to starving due to the 'harsh' training during the holidays .

Random picture of Miku working at McDonalds . Please , SG government if you have seen this please built McDonalds at our void deck . Sincerely, everyone who gets hungry at midnight .

Smile that beautiful smile of yours /inserts fail wink/ :)

COUNTDOWN TO REAL NIGHTMARE : 4DAYS

SNSD's IGAB Drama Teaser

Okay so I didn't update my blog yesterday because I was too lazy to post . Today the topic shall be about ... SNSD IGAB Teaser . So the Sones (as you know) are really excited and anxious about SNSD's comeback (like finally) . When they tweeted that they would upload the teaser later (didn't specify what time) , it got the Sones really anticipating for the teaser .

They started complaining on Twitter , Facebook and everywhere . They just can't wait . Well , you can say that our patience have limits since we've been suppressing or SNSD feels (?) . When the teaser is out I'm sure many Sones were damn excited and felt like they're on cloud nine . When they checked out the teaser with exploding SNSD feels , they were all like ASDFGHJKL . Trust me , they were basically all maniacs at that particular moment .

So it was kind of an interesting teaser and I really can't wait for the teaser on 2/1/13 but it's also the same day the school reopen *sobs

COUNTDOWN • 7 DAYS :)

"Friends"

I'll get straight to the point . No beating around the bush this time alright ? So I kind of have mental problems (?) and it was confirmed aka verified when I checked the symptoms . Perhaps these symptoms will become clearer and obvious in my secondary life but whatever.

So I kind of hate my life and start getting depression nowadays and have the temptation to jump down a bridge or jump into the sea I thought nobody would care about me since I'm like transparent human or something in their eyes .

Yeah , so I'm suffering all these alone and I didn't think anyone would assist me and go through this rough patch of life . The life of an idiotic and worthless teenager I suppose . I didn't want to seek help from anybody because I just think they might just ignore me and be like "Its not even my business why should I care ? Get off I have better things to do in my life than counseling a piece of junk here ."

So I didn't ask anyone for advice . Nobody at all . My friends should have seen my obvious depression aka desperation now but they don't seem to give a damn about me and instead , it was the online friends I have . Even thought we've not met each other , they actually kind of cheered me up and to my surprise ( really really surprise and touched ) , they were worried about me .

During difficult times , you'll get to see who are your true and sincere friends . I understood this quote , finally :) . A thousand friends who will only see you when they need help or when you success is not even as good as a friend who will understand you , care for you , cry with you and feel your emotions .

I'm self-centered , I know . Because I'm the only child in the family and they shower me with all the love and concern more than the others would probably have . That built up my selfishness and I began to be more greedy . Ever heard of this : 得寸进尺？ Yeah so basically its that meaning . After getting something , you would be greedy and yearn for more . More and more . Your greed will never be satisfied .

I must give those true friends a big thank you . I love you all ^^

See Yoseob there ? I love him okay :D

So bad to me , so bad to me oh girl you're like a Caffeine <3 This is the best MV ever (Y) My heart goes out to him after seeing this picture T_T

ANNYEONG ! ^o^

I was actually writing one post but suddenly idk what happened and I deleted it (?) lol . Ok never mind . So hello . Boring day . Hands glued to the phone the whole day . Ok thanks bye nothing much :DDDD

I'm not dead yet T_T

Mayans , why you give me false hope ? I was wishing I could die yesterday but ... A failure indeed . I don't know to loathe you for letting my meet these coming hardships or thank you for giving me the chance to live my life .

I hate you tbh .

Ok so you kind of made me super disappointed and I'm basically whining that I'll have to attend this competitive secondary school next year . I don't know if I can survive this with an extremely low IQ , a lazy self and friendless #foreveralone .

Aish . So hopeless right now seeing the amount of things I'll have to memorize and the difficult life .

Pshh , my life is totally f*cked up .

21/12/12 , End of the world ?

Konnichiwa ! This might be the last time I'm updating my blog . Why ? Just look at the title of my post :) 吃汤圆了吗？^^ So approximately20 minutes more and we'll die (?) . We'll see . Just be open-minded about this . If the world doesn't end , the Mayans will definitely get criticized . Yeah . So happy end of the world (?)

WAIT . Today is the release of SNSD's new MV teaser right ? The song kinda sound like Crayon but I'm happy that Hyoyeon seems to be the main lead this time & I really love her hair colour :D Well , Yuri unnie is just too bright like a diamond (lol?) . Argh shes god damn gorgeous there . So the Queens are saying that SNSD's Dancing Queen copied T-ara's MV . Oh god please , SNSD is suppose to release this MV earlier than T-ara .

Anyways , we'll see :)

A dying rose

HELLO !! ^^ Went to sec 1 registration today . Really tiring T.T The school is actually quite a distance from my house and I really hate the fact that it takes about 40 minutes to arrive there even with a public transport . When I went there and heard that the lowest score accepted this year was 265 I was like : Holy mother of god . I'm barely a few marks away from those students . The once named ' the genius ' has actually dropped to this pathetic state in a sea of real genius . I can't see where I stand , I can't identify myself among the crowd . I no longer outshine the rest and can be proud and brag around with confidence . I'm not the top anymore . I'm now at the bottom .

To be exact , a nobody now . Pathetic right ? :)

I looked around with a blank look . The girls who are chatting like those housewives bargaining in a supermarket . The girls who have so much confidence . The girls who are even better than me . The girls who have their own circle of friends . The girls who would not even take a casual glance at me .

None .

I could only watch as each of them flaunted . I could only listen as they bragged around . I could only feel , the jealousy and bitterness when I see them . Their shadows covered me . Their feet stepped on me like a piece of trash ... I have no friends , no brains , no character . Just not perfect . What could I do ?

...

OKAY CUT ! That was pretty dramatic hahaha . Wasn't bad huh ? The situation isn't that exaggerating . I'm just fooling around lol . But really , the jealousy and bitterness and lost in this crowd . Friendless . No one would care about me .

So yeah .

I'm really anti-social . The real me lives on the internet tbh . I never dared to make new friends . I never dared to take a bigger and more treacherous step . I never dared to speak up for myself . I never dared to do anything .

So helpless . I wonder where would be my only hope of sunlight .

还会有一丝光正在等着我吗？还是我的人生就会是如此。没有英雄，没有援手，只有惨痛的死神正在等着我。

真的是如此吗？真的会这么悲哀吗？

Happy or disappointed

Good morning people ^^ It's about 9 AM here . So yeah . Got my secondary school posting result :p I have this mixed feeling of both joy and disappointment . I don't want to go further into explanation , sorry .

I really think I get pissed off really easily when someone calls me something offensive like 'whore' , 'slut' and 'bitch' . I mean if you don't know the exact meaning of these words , please do not be a smart Alec and just put those words into use , thinking that you're high and mighty when you use these words .

THEY CAN REALLY BE DAMN OFFENSIVE AND HURTING I SWEAR .

And also , if you do not understand the situation I am in , don't assume . It's really annoying to assume what my lifestyle is and try to find out more and more . I told you I have my problems . Don't stick your nose into other people's business . It's really irritating unless we need help , understand ?

I dislike quarreling with people , its really tiring to explain why am I right to people who turn a deaf ear to what I am saying and continue holding on tightly to their so called 'justice' .

Before you insist on something , think about the other opinions too . Yeah ? :)

Midnight , a hard decision

Annyeong Haseyo people ! :) I'm writing on the blog again , haha . The time here is around 2AM . I still can't sleep , pondering over a really hard decision . So tomorrow I have this 'carnival' thingy and I was kind of really needed to go since I'll be like the 'main character' of the 'story' . Yeah , but I really don't know what to do . Every single time I have a lot of questions flooding mind at this point of time when everyone is off at their own 'Lala land' . I really wanted to question them about this . If I don't get a satisfied answer , my heart will keep beating fast against my ribcage and I'll feel very panicky & my stomach would do a somersault . My eyelids are extremely heavy right now and all I want to do is just sleep on my cozy bed . I really can't stop thinking about my queries since I've been thinking about all the possibilities of every single possible way I could take tomorrow . None of them seems like a perfect idea . So I don't know what should I do . Haiz , this is life I suppose ? Expect it & Live it .

A bad bad day

Today is one of the worse days in my life so far . We were suppose to have a game of RM at 1PM . I didn't set my alarm clock thinking that I would wake up in time since I slept at 12.30 AM . Expect the unexpected . I woke up at 12PM instead and when I saw the time , I almost jumped out of my bed . I couldn't be late because the other players will blame me if I'm late since the materials are with me and without the materials , they would not be able to commence the game :( In order to make it there in time (hopefully if the bus is not late) , I skipped my breakfast & lunch , grabbed the materials and made a dash out of my house . When I reached the destination , I was late by around 10 minutes . But well , they didn't blame me either ^^ . So when we started the game , I immediately found one of the members of the MT , I started giving chase at the top speed in hope of catching him and peeling off his name tag gloriously . However , it seems like my stamina gave in . I had stomach cramps and I can't continue running and as a result , he managed to slip from my hands . I'm totally out of breath so I started walking . My mind gets dizzy and I can't see my surroundings properly . So I decided to return to the starting point and rest for a while before I start giving chase . Fortunately , I reached the starting point before I was about to faint and rested for a short while before my team mate started urging me to give chase . I drank some water and stood up . Even though I knew I couldn't run , I told myself not to give up . There was only one thought in my mind : I can't lose this game . So the both of us started giving chase . My team mate ran after the opponent while I ran from the other side to block him . My team mate isn't that bad , he manage to catch him and pulled off his name tag . While the member walked back in disappointment . I manage to spot the location of the other trio . They were actually hiding in a really easily spotted area . The gaze of my team mate and I met and with a nod , we ran in different directions to surround them . As expected , the trio immediately fled . Two of them ran towards the left while the other ran to the right . I chased the single person instead . We ran quite a distance and my stamina again , failed me . I was about to give up the tiring chase when the opponent suddenly slowed down and panted heavily . "I'm totally out of stamina , I can't run anymore," she confessed , her hand on her waist . Seizing the good chance , I caught her hand and we both sat down to rest for a while . "Wow this is tiri-" I peeled off her tag before she had any chance to run or finish her little speech . She seemed to admit defeat and together , both of us went back to the 'jail' . On the other hand , my companion had manage to catch one of the duo and he was waving her tag at me victoriously . The other one manage to flee and was out of our sight . When we both spotted her again , she saw us too . To our surprise , she was walking towards us with a calm composure . She must have a back-up plan , I thought , walking towards her , thinking that she would run away soon . But her calm composure immediately morphed to that of a scared face . "I think I lost my phone when I was running!" She said with panic , both hands on her empty pocket . At first I thought she was tricking us , but I knew she can't really act . She's honest . Thus the both me and my companion exchanged glances , went up to her and questioned her . "It was with me all the while but now its gone!" She exclaimed with a bewildered expression . Upon hearing her words , we started to panic too . Her phone is really expensive , so we have to find it . I called her phone 10 times but the user is busy . The others were helping her to search for her phone but to no avail . Suddenly , it started raining cats and dogs . "Storm rain," I shook my head and headed to the shelter . "Your phone must have been stolen . Its off !" I explained after thinking of all the possibilities . She looked really desperate and called some of us to help her continue the search . After the rain stopped , we still could not find her phone . In the end , she managed to pick up the courage to tell her mom about it and we all went home . A really unlucky day , isn't it ? :(

A simple day

Hello ! ^^ First post in my blog ! It seems that blogs are really interesting so I've decided to start one . Today is a pretty normal day . 7 hours of sleep is actually very less for me . I somehow seem to need more sleep than the others . But well , ever since this school holiday , my body clock has been screwing up really often . I was wondering whether I could change back to my usual routine when school reopens . I certainly would not like to leave a bad impression on the first day os school . I think my intelligence is fading ever since the start of the holiday . Before I was not tweeting , neither am I facebooking . Thus people actually think that I'm a good student . They haven't seen my true colors yet . To be honest , I'm a student who slacks a lot , only doing what I'm ordered to do and nothing more . Finished homework , I can watch television . I don't even revise for my examinations because I know I'll end up sleeping on the study desk . I just can't use this method to study , it never worked . Well , since the start of holiday I have been feeding myself with all the k-pop news feeds I had been 'craving' for during the school days . Then my mind is just plain k-pop . I'm really afraid that I couldn't catch up when school reopens . Anyway , school is reopening soon . So hwaiting :)